The last time I felt this way was when I found out that Robin Williams took his life. He was and continues to be one of my favorite comedians. I have never laughed so loud and so hard more than when I watch his comedy specials. But this post is not about him.
Today, I found out that one of my favorite people to watch has killed himself. His name is Anthony Bourdain. Celebrity chef. The host of Parts Unknown.
If you're familiar with his show, even its predecessor called No Reservations, you know how great of a storyteller he is. He pulls you into the country he is in as if you were there too or dream of being there. So many places on my bucket list come from watching episode after episode of his show. And let's not forget the food. Almost everything he ate I want to try. I never watched his show without eating at the same time because I would eventually grow hungry.
It's hard for me to wrap my mind around the fact that he's gone. Especially because I just finished watching the latest episode, which was shot in Hong Kong. I'm so sad. A deep kind of sad.
The most heartbreaking of all was when I read that Eric Rupert was the one who discovered him unresponsive in his hotel room. My favorite episodes of Parts Unknown always involve Eric Rupert. When he tags along it's hilarious because Tony is so mean to him, yet Eric takes it in stride like the life-loving Buddist he is. What could have been going through Eric's mind when he discovered one of his closest friends was gone.
Suicide is always a hard topic for me. I have come close many times in my young life. Turbulent teen and young adult as I was. There have been people in my life who have attempted. Some survived. Others succeeded.
It does not discriminate. It can happen to anyone. Sometimes even to the most successful of us all. Having money is no guarantee.
So, if you are at a place in your life where you think life is not worth living, take a moment and find help. There are so many places to get them from. You are not alone. You are never alone.